Wednesday, October 12, 2011

El Roi - the God who sees me

El Roi “The God who sees me.”
Based on (Gen. 16:7-13) and (Psalm 33:13-15, 18-19)

I feel so alone,
            Even in a crowd.
A small red speck,
            On a painting of white.
A blade of grass,
            In a field of wheat.

The disease is so large,
            It threatens to overtake me..
Why must I work so hard,
            To be me, to be Colleen?
Where is the real me,
            Who is confident, secure and sane?
Where is Hagar’s El Roi?
            “The God who sees me.”
I seek His face,
            But my mind can no longer grasp Him.
The Lord looks down from heaven;
            He sees all humankind…. Even me!

Friday, October 7, 2011

Philippians Chapter 1

Philippians chapter 1 is about Joy.  As Believers we can have contentment, peace, serenity no matter what is going on around us.  Verse 6 tells us that He who has begun a good work in us will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.  I have found this verse to be helpful by inserting my name for 'us' and trying to remember that He is the creator and He created me with good works in mind.  Therefore He knows about my Bi-Polar Disorder and continues to work in and through me.  When I get discouraged because of what I see as limitations, God turns into testimonies of what He has done in my life.  I just have to hang on to His promises and provisions.